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[05 Mar 2006|11:10am] |
Brittany,
God I am so excited with our apartment..
I cannot wait til we can actually spend the
night and have all our stuff sit up. I never
expected to be with someone like you, I always
expected to be with just some anywho But I
really really lucked out when we started dating.
I thank God everyday for you. I cannot wait
til we are like 5yrs down the road with kids
and all. I love you SO! much, it sucks. I want
to tell you like every second of every day
but I know you would get aggravated with me
telling ya that much so yea, I cannot stand
being away from you.. You and Brenna have
become my life now and I am willing to give
whatever it takes to make you to happy and
have everything that you want in life and more.
I realize that I can be annoying and I know I
am not the brightest person in the world but I
can guarentee you one thing and that is you will
be loved and cared for more by me than every
other guy in the world combined could love you.
I look at you and feel like my heart is going
to race outta my chest and flop in the floor..
Then I realize if it does then Link might eat it
.. haha.. Really though your everything and more
than I have ever wanted in a girl.. your so
pretty, your smart, you can paint, your baby is
absolutly wonderful, your not a whore, your not
a bitch.. you're just everything and I feel like
I don't deserve you sometimes and that I am
selfish for holding you to myself but then I
realize that I do deserve you because I do love
you.. Anyways I'm going to piss ya off by getting
into bed at 1:30 so yea, better go before it's
to late... LOVE YOU DARLIN
Big dumb redneck
Also this is like I don't care spelling and stuff
so yea, mispells or grammer thigns .. who cares.. lol
LOVE YOU!
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Just thought I'd share.
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[04 Mar 2006|09:25pm] |
So the apartment is wonderful. Our bed gets delivered Monday and our Water gets turned on.
We won't be getting the internet for a bit so this is my sign off note for a while. I do want cable TV, but no the internet. Not right now, I'll enjoy getting away from the LJ world and away from the online stuff.
I'll miss my ebay but oh well :)
Rocky and I have just about everything we need save a table and chairs. The one that was given to us is WAY to big for right now. So if you know anyone with one to spare let us know.
If you'd like to come see the apartment or just visit. We won't have a phone for a bit, but will be working hard to get one, you can contact us at the home phone here.
You know the number.
I'll see you in a few months!
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[03 Mar 2006|03:38pm] |
So yeah, I'm happy about my apartment, the water gets turned on Monday and our bed gets dropped off then too.
Rocky and I wanted to buy a house, we got it all figured out where we could buy a double-wide and place it up on his land and live happily ever after. However, the more I thought about it, the more I didn't want to do it. It's not that I'm afraid of the commentment, but afraid of what if? What if he does want to finish his schooling at University of Florida. OR what if he wants to take the Army up on that offer. I don't want to be strapped here with a housepayment that I can't afford in a house thats too big for me right now.
So we both came to the conclusion lets rent for a year and when he graduates we'll buy our home. I'm soooo happy about it. I felt a big chip off my shoulder once it did happen. I've never really been on my own, and granted I'm not out on my own however I don't want to buy something yet.
BUT when I do, I can't wait to live where it would be. It's so peaceful and quiet up there. It's on the second highest point in Cabell County and it's like I'm standing on top of the world. You can watch the sun set over the river, and all over the valley. You can watch the sun rise over the rolling hills. It's breath taking.
We would have had our own home in 6 weeks. (had to order the place) I told him I'd rather wait and build our own. He agree'd. He said he wanted it to be everything I've ever wanted. I told him I wanted in and out of school first. There was no rush.
I have to pay off my student loans, and then I will get my two year at NIT or Huntington Jr. I'm not cut out for Marshall, I'm just not smart enough for it. I'm too inpatient. Thats why I'm so damn proud of everyone who's getting it done. I know I never could, because I don't have that drive and it's so great that they are.
Rocky's willpower as a student amazes me. He's so smart with computers that it sometimes even gets me lost. He can build them, and power them like crazy. He's doing so good that they are talking about once he gets into this job making him a trainer or computer tech.
He's been offered a full ride to almost anywhere by the Army, if he is willing to work 5 years or so in the robotics department. He'd go down to NASA, and other places like that to help design and build tech stuff. but knowing my man he'd probebly build the T2 and destroy the world. lol. not on purpose either.
However, I know he is just happy being here and being loved. HE doesn't need riches and Florida to make him happy. He makes me so happy that it just fills me completly. He's such a wonderful man, sweet caring father, and a great lover.
This morning, since our training didn't let out until midnight we got the baby at his parents and just crashed in his bed. Well Brenna woke up at 5 and we put her in bed with us and it was sooo sweet how she curled up into him. He's so warm and so soft. He has such a broad chest that a girl can get lost on it. When he wraps me up all that you can see from his arms is my face. He curls me so tightly up that I sleep better then I ever have.
I'm so inlove with that man. I'm so happy to have him and blessed by him. He doesn't read this because he thinks they are stupid and thats fine by me, because I don't need a journal anymore to express to him how I feel. I tell him every moment and everyday. We won't go to sleep at night until we kiss and when we roll away from one another in sleep we still have to touch. I'll put my foot over his or something along those lines.
Well work is about to start then it's moving day, so be well and God bless.
I don't need to thank you Rocky, you already know why and how much I love you.
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[02 Mar 2006|03:50pm] |
Freedom..Freedom! FREEDOM!!!!!!!!
YES! *tears credit cards to shreads* GONE GONE GONE!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!
So today has started out to be a better day so far! FREEDOM IS MINE!
Now to get those student loans gone and I'll be over with this shit forever!
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[01 Mar 2006|03:13pm] |
I'm so tired. I haven't been rested now since last weekend. I've actually really gained a lot of sleep, but lost it all at the same time. I think my iron is low or something. I've stopped drinking pop now for about a month and perhaps am drinking too much water and washing my system out.
Rocky and I move into our apartment this weekend and I'm excited. Brenna's room is so sweet. The whole place is really cute. There is a dinning room, a living room and two bedrooms with a nice kitchen and bar. The bathroom seems really sweet and there are two porches with stairs leading to one with a fenced yard.
I go tomorrow to turn on the water and everything else is set.
I'm not having the best day. I got to Grandmother's to get Brenna and realized I didn't leave a carseat for Brian, I feel bad, but things happen. SOOO I had to go back to Barboursville and get my carseat and then come back. The reason I wasn't in my car was because I couldn't find my damn keys anywhere and the shower was cold.
So yeah, I just need a nap or something.
Night!
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[28 Feb 2006|01:14am] |
GOOOO JERICA!!!!
Jerica Hammond FINALLY finished her CD! YAY!!! She's so amazing. She's the girl who sang my solo before me in Show Choir so I had a lot to live up to and didn't even come close.
By the way, Brian I sure would like to have that tape back if you please. Along with my pirate bag. I don't know why you keep it, but it sure would mean a lot to me if it was returned.
GO JERICA!!! I can't wait to hear it, I always knew she'd be the one make it big I knew it. We all dream it don't get me wrong, I let that dream go a long time ago. I just don't have the voice for it, or really the will. I have a baby now and know that dream is long gone. She's the only audience I ever want to sing to. I prefer Opera anyway *wink* but even if I had a voice from an angel there would be no way I could make it big, because I can't leave here. I can't become famous from Huntington West Virginia without traveling and I can't pull Brenna from her home. So I can't leave behind my one true dream come true.
She's all I've ever dreamed about when I was a child. She's all I dream about now. I go in and just watch her sleep and get on my knees and thank God for such a blessing in my life.
I'm starting to cry now just thinking about how happy they make me, and I'm going to climb in bed for the night. I need my love's arms, but of a happy need.
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[26 Feb 2006|10:35pm] |
So our world is looking up for once. I am feeling this pull to go to Church and now that I have Sundays off I'll start going again!
Rocky and I got new jobs, granted this one will probebly be bad, but I doubt I'll get a second degree burn on my arm from calling people. It's at good ole' GC services where alot of my friends have used this job as a crutch until something better came along.
I'm an ambitious young lady who can do just about anything. My work ethic is real high when I'm happy and as long as I've got Rocky at my side all is well. I work 4-Close that way I can spend the day with Brenna and she has a babysitter at night. I tried on my new work clothes and about died it felt so great. I get to dress like a woman and turn heads because I look good and not because I'm covered in shit. we are both going to really enjoy the weekends off, that is going to be amazing. We'll get to go to church and sleep in with Brenna. He'll be off of school so his grades wont suffer. Granted I don't see 3.5 suffering do you? lol he does.
We got our apartment today! Thank GOD! It's a huge garage apartment in Lessage across the street from Jackson Brother's carpet. It's got it's own little fenced in yard with a quiet street. The surrounding places are all real nice and clean. It's only for a year until he gets out of school and we'll be able to buy a place of our own. For now I'm happy about this. It has two decks and has a beautiful kitchen. It's only 6 rooms, but for us it's perfect. The bathroom is really nice and the laundry room isn't out in the open. The kitchen though is the best part. It's so awesome. I can't wait to start cooking and all that.
I'm going to hate the evening shift, but I have a few other job possibilties that are going to open up. Aparently a few of my mom's old co-workers were very impressed with the way I ran things for her. So cross your fingers.
God is awesome, Rocky is wonderful, Brenna is an angel and life is grand.
Three months and not a single fight! Well just that one, but it wasn't a fight more, I can't love you until you love you.
Night!
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[24 Feb 2006|10:00pm] |
DIE GOLDEN CORAL DIE!! ALL YOU FAT FUCKS GET YOUR FOOD FROM SOMEONE ELSE!!!! MWHAHAHAHAHA
I DID IT!! I FUCKING QUITE THAT DAMN PLACE! I didn't give a notice or nothing, they are UNWORTHLY OF A NOTICE! I haven't had a day off since the 8th and wasn't going to get one until the 2nd. I worked over 60 hours last week.
However, don't worry about me because I have another job already. Stopped one in one day and started the same day at another one. My first day is monday and so far it's great. Oh and I've started a revolt there too. I heard a lot of other people are leaving. My Rocky got a job with me so we have the same shift and it works out better for the baby and it's all grand!
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[21 Feb 2006|08:44pm] |
So it's for real. This is the man I'm going to marry. He opened up to me the other day and finally let me in so much so we cried. He let down that wall, that force keeping all his weak spots in is broke. My chest burns for him, and not the kind of hate burn it feels for another. My fire grows of passion and desire, and most of all love.
We are going to name our son Ben, when we have one, much later. Brenna and Ben. Not sure on the Benjimin yet, but for sure Ben. Ben Grimm is why. I've never been so happy in my life. We have each other rings now, and plan our wedding to be in October even if we do a "lets run and get married" He still promises me an October wedding, but then again July is looking really well too. I want a country wedding were you wear blue jeans and a white shirt, run barefoot with polished nails. We serve strawberries and cream, with hot dogs and hamburgers. Maybe even a pig roast! A country and class mixture just like us.
We'll have to wait a bit on our rings though lol, because we can't afford to pop the whole bit down at once, he's got mine in layaway and I his. The ring is perfect too. I went to the mall for one thing, went to the first store and let my heart guide me and I found the perfect ring. It's perfect! I remember when I was ring shopping for someone else it seemed nice for him, but still wasn't the best, but for Rocky it gives me chills. It's white gold with a "hammer finish" as the guy said so if he beats around on it which with Rock it happens- it won't matter.
I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to find a planner that I like the best and just do it that way. I want a real wedding and I'm going to start now. We are also honeymooning to Anna Maria Island, but with the family. Life is about your family and I couldn't imagine my best day and week without them.
I adore his family so much. I tell him everything that was so great about all my ex's is combined into him. Brandon's computer smarts, Joey's build, Brian's family. I've got everything I've ever wanted it a guy. He's outdoorsy and loves to fish, yet he loves to cuddle infront of the tv for the soul purpose of falling asleep. He's a wonderful father, and as far as he's concerned Brenna is just as much his, and he loves her just the same as any other would.
We got into a little tif the other day and Benya said he was in Brenna's room just standing there saying he wouldn't know what to do without the baby. When I can't find him he's in her room playing with the Elmo or just looking into her bed missing her. It's a wonderful feeling.
Ok I'm off to go to the tanning bed (valentine's present) and then to sit and read my book while I wait for him to get off work.
Night!
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[16 Feb 2006|11:21pm] |
Swinging BABY!!!
WEEEEEE!!!!!
Papa Bear catch me!!!
YAY!
"Whats this?" ~The Pumpkin King
One very mad little baby after the park trip.
Out of Wonderland
AGAIN!!!
YELLOW TUBE!
I can stand up and not hit my head like you mommy!
This last picture is the best one because its of her first finding that little yellow tunnel. She was oooo and ahhh over everything, but the yellow tunnel made her go silent and just stand then BAM she was all over it!!!
We had a GREAT trip! It was a lot of fun, and I learned I can still fit into small places. OH and by the by Kristin got her that outfit for Christmas isn't it cute?! It was a little white coat that goes along with it. She didn't need it because it was 70. Brenna, Rocky and I have had a great week. Things have really looked up for us. Rock and I haven't faught one time.
Rocky is a wonderful man, and I'm very lucky he's mine. He's perfect, he's sweet, he's a great daddy, and is sooooo sexy!!! Well it's late and I have to work a double tomorrow..I won't get to see my little one much, but Monday comes very quick when you work.
Night!
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[15 Feb 2006|03:25pm] |
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Our lazy afternoon. On Brenna's first walk of the season we learned one thing. She's FAST!
Oh she screamed and giggled like a wild woman and danced around in the grass. It was grand! Also, Rocky is getting really good at catching her before she falls. If I can get the video uploaded I'll show you.!
I'm off to work, talk to you soon!
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| My Funny Valentine |
[14 Feb 2006|09:54pm] |
My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet you’re my favourite work of art
Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?
But don’t change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentine’s day
Is your figure less than greek?
Is your mouth a little weak?
When you open it to speak?
Are you smart?
But don’t you change one hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentine’s day
That is all I have to say on this subject..in this journal. Please check the other.
*grin*
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[12 Feb 2006|01:15am] |
Life is so great right now. Things are looking so wonderful. I stop and see the snow as beautiful and not the thousand of ashes left from everything I've burnt. :)
Rocky and I are wonderful. It's so hard to get up each morning from him. He's always so damn warm and so sweet. His brown hair is a mess all over his head and his eyes are glassy..it's hot.
I really like how our wedding date has been set by everyone else. March 1st we are to be married, because it would be three months to that date. Just the thought of being his wife makes me thrilled. I get all..giddy and warm.
His mom and I spent the whole day together last week and that was nice. We're alot alike, but at the same time different. His sister is really really awesome. She's still in High School and I hope we get close enough she can come to me and I can help her through the teenage times ahead. Like how to pick the winners.
I've alway dated winners in my eyes. Even through all the shit I've been through and given I've not been mistreated. I've not been sexually abused, or hit..maybe a little screaming abuse but nothing on the matters of abuse abuse.
The ex's are still winners. Joey is getting ready to graduate. Brandon is in Chicago, doing really well for himself, Brian is getting married and hopefully going back to school. I'm proud of them. :)
Well this one is going to be short and sweet, not long like the other posts in the "real journal" I'm frankly just not in the mood, and I've got a man who needs some lovin. He's had a hard day and I can't wait to settle all that. I've never had such a desire for a man like this.
Be nice to everyone ok guys? It seems a lot of those people are getting to the point of snapping. No more fights..life is too short.
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[10 Feb 2006|10:11pm] |
This is Rocky's dad. He reminds me so much of my Grandpa Cooper I almost cry everytime. He LOVES this baby. He adores her and I adore him for that too. :)
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[08 Feb 2006|10:01pm] |
Rocky and I are a great mixture of Class and Country. I teach him how to eat at an etiquette table, and he teaches me how to hunt with a gun. I show him how to use chop sticks, and tell him what every Kanji Symbol means, he shows me how to change the oil in my car and lets me know what all the lights mean on my dashboard.
I enjoy Sushi, Artichokes, and white fish. He likes fried chicken, mashpotatoes, and dumplings.
I think it's a perfect match, we both have the same love for a lot of things.
Family, Video Games, and Laughter.
I think he's great because one day he'll be spouting out school stuff that goes over my head, and the next how beautiful my daughter is, and how much of a blessing I am.
Here let me lay this out for you.
-=The Other Night=-
I'm sitting playing my gameboy minding my own business he walks in from work we get ready for bed. He comes in from his shower and sits down. I have changed the objects in my hand and this is what he says,
"See..this is why I love you. When I came in you were playing a game, and now your reading a book..thats really hot. I love a chick who reads."and if Brenna was there I'd be reading to her.
and not just any book mind you. The Furtunes Daughter, READ IT! It's on Opera's book club and anyone who can compare their memories to cargo boxes on a ship is one hell of great writer.
FOr real check it out.
Ok, FINALLY AFTER LIKE FOREVER OF FEELING BAD I'M GOING TO MAKE ROCKY FEEL BETTER..perhaps in a little pink number. *wink*
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[06 Feb 2006|08:50pm] |
OMG! I now am 115 pounds!
I looked at myself today and went..wtf? It's from working in that damn bakery and being so damn happy.
Oh well, I feel wonderful and am blessed.
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[04 Feb 2006|08:53pm] |
HOLY CRAP,
SARA, Check out Pink's new song, Stupid Girls.
It's GREAT!
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[04 Feb 2006|08:15pm] |
Be proud, these are the only pics Rocky will let me take of him awake!
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[02 Feb 2006|12:36am] |
Gooberhead,
You're so perfect. From the day I frist saw you I knew you were something special. In the 2 months we have been going out I have fallen absolutly in love with you and everything about you. Now two months down the road were still happy and I've fallen even more in love with you. One of your best qualities is that little bobblehead baby of yours. I love how she pulls away from you to stay with me! Makes me really happy. I can't wait for the day I can call you my wife and we can have kids of our own and raise them together in OUR house. I admit I'm not perfect, infact I am extremely far from even being close to perfect but yet you have accepted me as me and you make me feel so great about myself when around. You're everything I could possibly imagine or even try to imagine and more. I love EVERYTHING about you and hope that we can spend the rest of our days together.
I love you.
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Do you guys know how awesome it is to be with a guy who can bench press you with one arm?
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[17 Jan 2006|10:36pm] |
Three different ones, the two that say I love Rocky in the end..which is your favorite? One eye opening or two? The other one is up for grabs if you'd like a copy.
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[17 Jan 2006|10:24pm] |
*passes out*
MY ICON WORKED!!!! I made that!!! I'll make someone else one if you'd like. Those are the lyrics to the title theme of Labyrinth called Underground by David Bowie..great song!
Oh and I've got a new LJ for my writings only so check it out.
It's called Dreaming_Owl
Friend me!
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[16 Jan 2006|02:47pm] |
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Brittany
::big bold letters:
I <3 U
(I love being young still I can be corny and get by with it.)
Love of my life,
I woke up this morning rolled over expecting you to be there but I forgot you had to work. I took care of ya baby today, she ate a whole jar of baby food and a cookie thing around 3:00, I just changed her so she should be clean and she just took about a half hour-hour so she could be tires till. Your mom isn't feelin good so be nice to her. Well work again. See you around 9:00ish.
Pappa Bear
I love you.
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Dear Pappa Bear,
I woke up beside you this morning and as always it felt great. Brenna had to be with her father early so thank you for helping me out with that one. In our time together I think I've learned more from you then I ever have. I've learned that I finally have someone who will do anything I damn well ask, but I can't ask a thing of you. I've grown an idependance about myself that leads me not to want from you or expect from you. I have however developed a need of you. I need you. I need you when you sleep, and need to hear your laugh. I need to feel your body with mine and to hear your voice call out my name.
Watching you with my daughter is amazing. I thank you for loving her just as much as I do. You take such great care of her and for once I'm letting someone. You two are developing a bond that I know now can not be broken. You asked me the other night that if we were to ever break up, I wouldn't keep Brenna from you, and I make you that promise. Here is my proof.
I wanted to thank you for all that you do, with out me asking. I thank you a day last week when I wasn't feeling good and you took Brenna for an hour or so while I slept. I thank you for sticking up for me at work and offering to kick a few asses. I thank you for cleaning the house while I was gone, and to help take care of my mother. The impact you've made on this house hold is a grand one. After the year of darkness we've had you've made it brighter. My mother trusts you, and she said she didn't think she ever could again with my boyfriends. She said she doesn't see a nut behind your eyes, she doesn't see the laziness as she has seen before in many years passing.
I had forgotten how nice it was to have a partner in everything, so thank you for standing at my side..or carrying me when I need it.
Here's to the next year, and to this Fall. Here's to the many nights to come, and the many days to pass. Here's to your friends, my friends and the now our friends. Here's to all the diapers, baby food, and new things, but most of all hats off to you Woppy! You make my life so much more then I ever thought it could be.
Love always,
Lillian Brittany Bell
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[15 Jan 2006|09:57pm] |
- Twenty-eight percent of Microsoft's employees are Brittany and Rocky.
- Brittany and Rocky have often been found swimming miles from shore in the Indian Ocean.
- Humans share about fifty percent of their DNA with Brittany and Rocky.
- You can tell if Brittany and Rocky have been hard-boiled by spinning them. If they stands up, they are hard-boiled!
- Brittany and Rocky can grow up to three feet in a 24 hour period.
- Olive oil was used for washing Brittany and Rocky in the ancient Mediterranean world.
- The first American zoo was built in 1794, and contained only Brittany and Rocky.
- Brittany and Rocky are the largest of Saturn's moons.
- Ideally, Brittany and Rocky should be stored on their side at a temperature of 55 degrees!
- The patron saint of Brittany and Rocky is Saint Eugenie!
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Yeah thats right we wash our ass in Olive!
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[13 Jan 2006|04:41pm] |
So today has been an over all great day so far. Rocky should be home soon and I'm going to go get dinner started.
I just picked Brenna up, and she ran to me like always. I heard Grandmother say to Todd, "See just like a Christmas Tree." I adore that woman. She and I laugh and talk like nothing has even happened between Brian and I. She treats me just as well as she ever has. She's always got some treat for me, or fudge! I am basing my entire motherly/wifedom (word?) around her. She's such a great influence on me, and makes me strive to be all that I can be for my baby girl. She's very head strong in her faith and that is beautiful. She really is a great woman, I know the day she passes there will be a beautiful blue sky in remembrance of her and a line out the door I'm sure. When she had her surgery done she was well taken care of. Everybody under gods green earth called and prayed for her. She's a blessing.
She knows I truely care about the well beings of the ones I love. I'm sure if I asked her how to bring blood pressure down she'd help me. (not mine) She knows just as well as I do how much a good home cooked meal is not only for your body but for your soul as well.
So it's off to pick up some chicken, and some butter for dinner. NOPE I'm not frying it this time either. Something else a little more healhty for my dears.
Oh and P.S. I'm raising a little piglet! She had an entire hot dog when she came home, Ham Dinner AND some Banana bites! OINK OINK!! lol It's a good thing, her Daddy said she hasn't been eating very well because she's been sick, but it's all starting to clear up now. She just needs, (and has gotten I'm sure) some much needed TLC, and some R&R.
*hugs*
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